Songs that remind me...

Today as I was driving Andrew and Jamie home from Andrew's guitar lesson we were listening to the radio and Queen's You're My Best Friend came on (convenient since I'm wearing my Queen t-shirt today) and I instantly thought of Jason. Then just a minute ago I was listening to my i-Pod and Muse's Endlessly came on and I thought of him again. So, for Jason, I post some lyrics that remind me of him...

You're My Best Friend - Queen

Ooo. you make me live
whatever this world can give to me
It's you, you're all I see
Ooo, you make me live now honey
Ooo, you make me live
You're the best friend
that I ever had
I've been with you such a long time
You're my sunshine
And I want you to know
That my feelings are true
I really love you
You're my best friend
Ooo, you make me live
I've been wandering round
But I still come back to you
In rain or shine
You've stood by me girl
I'm happy, happy at home
You're my best friend.
You're the first one
When things turn out bad
You know I'll never be lonely
You're my only one
And I love
The things that you do
You're my best friend
Ooo, you make me live.
I'm happy, happy at home
You're my best friend
You're my best friend
Ooo, you make me live
You, you're my best friend.

**disregard "girl" in that one line** (you'd think Freddie wouldn't have included it... but since it was written by another member of the band who wasn't gay I suppose we can give him a pass...)

Endlessly - Muse

there's a part in me you'll never know
the only thing I'll never show

hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
hopelessly I'll give you everything
but I won't give you up
I won't let you down
and I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

It's plain to see it's trying to speak
cherished dreams forever asleep
hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
hopelessly I'll give you everything
but I won't give you up
I won't let you down
and I won't leave you falling
if the moment ever comes

hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
hopelessly I'll give you everything
but I won't give you up
I won't let you down
and I won't leave you falling
but the moment never comes

....

I....
am.....
alone...
swirling....
irritated....
unhappy (as usual)....
frustrated....
lost...?
confused....
being crushed.... I hate that one the most!
I am not:
angry
able to say it right
able to put thoughts to word
motivated
remembering where I was going with this....
I feel a little better now..... I think....
I guess when it's all said and done I'm not any better than I was when I was 12 and suicidal and depressed.
There I said it.
Nope, that didn't help.
So........ how do you fix what's broken when you don't know anything different than "broken"?

"Think of me what you will, I've got a little space to fill. You don't know how it feels to be me." (Thank you, Tom Petty)

Written 8/2011

No, I didn't fall off Earth!

Ok, so where have I been? I know it's been almost literally 3 months (to the day) since I last posted, right?! So much has happened...

• My dad turned 62
• Mother's day came and went
• My youngest went to story hour at his (upcoming) new school and went on his first school bus ride
• My sister came home from San Diego in preparation for her wedding
• My oldest performed in his last school orchestra concert for the year
• My sister's fiancee came home from San Diego (he's in the Navy and couldn't get an earlier leave)
• Amber and Nick had their bachelor/bachelorette parties - Tiger's game/hang out at the maid of honor's then everyone got together to bar hop
• We had the rehearsal and dinner afterward at Nick's mom's house - for the record DeLuca's Pizza in East Lansing is the most AMAZING pizza I've EVER had!!!
• Amber and Nick got married and we partied the night away - it was super fun and everyone looked awesome
• Memorial Day came and went
• My oldest friend (since 2nd grade) had her birthday party - we all went to see the Sex and the City movie - it was good.
• The Wings won the Stanley Cup!!!
• My youngest met with one of the kindergarten teachers and had a little pre-school testing - I don't know how things went but I assume he's a smart kid.
• The school year ended
• Andrew, Sandie (my oldest friend), and I went to the parade for the Red Wings
• The whole family went to a Tiger's game (thanks Aunt Jamie-girl for hookin' us up with your neighbor and his season tix!!!) - the Stanley Cup made an appearance there!!!
• A nasty storm happened and we were without power for 5 days - that sucked!
  
• Father's day came and went
  
• The first day of summer arrived
• My dad's nephew got married - Hawaiian casual theme - I've never been to any wedding like it before...
• All of us (including my parents and brother) except Jason went downtown to the fireworks for the International Freedom Festival
  
• Independence day came and went

And that about sums it up. In the short and sweet version. I suppose I should post some photos from some of the more significant things that went on during my absence. So here ya go....

From the Wings Parade:

Mickey Redmond


Steve Yzerman


Scotty Bowman


Mike Babcock


Gordie Howe


The Campbell Cup


Chris Chelios


Kris Draper


Nick Lidstrom & Stanley Cup


From the wedding:

Andrew was given free use of the mic for a bit and sang along to "Blitzkrieg Bop" by the Ramones and "Take Me Out" by Franz Ferdinand. It was so cute.


Here's the whole bridal party


Here's my favourite photo from the wedding